met baby in the afternoon , walked in the rain ,
played with the rain too :o then walked to hunney's
house outside. i was hoping someone walked out
so i can walk in ^^ baby left after that. hunneey came
out then walk to mrt. train to jp the walked around.
arcade in and out in and out . LOL . 4.30 went interchange.
walked around then went up , waited for the train . so many
people , keep laughing with hunney for no reason ? :o
crazy luhh she (: and was like non stop ._. LOL.
then went to buy drinks , went bus stop thr sit. tot the
bus come liao coz suddenly so many people standing infront
of me. then hunney sae coz i took their seat , thats why. LOL.
it at the carpark thr shoot pearl :o hunney keep laughing luhh
Crazy de her ._. ignore her ~ ^^ then went void deck . yanwen
came and join us after that. andand hunney dunno how to eat
ice cream wan can ? ._. eat 1 mouth then swing the ice cream
swing until all the cream fly out also dk ._. thrs once she swing
until me and yanwen ._. went to buy water and wash . shaunlee
came after that. noob luhh he ._. so violet. zzzzzz. keep anyhow
kick people one luhh. somemoe use the coin to kick ._. still hit
people . bull shyt ._. Pamela , Wenkang and shaunlow came after
that. walked to the shop thr bought ice pop . then Serena Eileen
and Xuanqi came after that. walked to shaunlow hse after that.
baby texted me and he sae he waiting for me outside my house
:o then went backhome out things then went slack with him.
after that baby need go so went to shaunlow house. didn eat
anything . they were taking pictures all the while . LOL. then
chatted with darlinn` on phone ^^ baby caleld afterthat. chatted ~
then di called after that :o 3 phone calls in a row ._. chatted till
9+ then went living room. chatted with the others . then 9+ went
down park. played around . Shaunlee as usual Violent ! ._. only
1 word can describe him luhh ._. pamela went off after that. then
played around ._. wenkang run until so fast ._. another crazy
one. home at 10+ bath .

i really wan to thank him for helping me.
always , when ever i am always down he
will always be the one picking me up. last night
this particular person send me a message.
and i noe that he might be the person for me ,
but i should be rejecting him yet i did not.
i said that i dun wan to get involved
in anymore r/s this year . but wad he had done really
make me very touched , and yea , thanks for
helping me .
bbq later on , i shall get prepared and met baby and hunney ^^

woke up at 8+ today . then sleep again till
9+ then sleep till 10+ sleep AGAIN then
11+ kehan morning called me ._. last midnight
sae wanted go outside his school wait him if not
go JLP deesiao one. but in the end i was sleeping ~
so cooool ~ LOL. prepare and met him and jp.
sorry to keep you waiting kehan ~ omg ! LOL.
met him then he sae he dun wan eat le. and he sae
wan go home coz very sian. i reach not even half
an hour then he wan go home ._. and i tell you
he acts really like a girl ~ hahaha! LOL. nvm ~
bused with him and he sae that there is shelter
ALL THE WAY to jean house. wad a lie ^^ LOL
i got down the bus and was half wet ._. then
walk around under the blks , he keep saying i
stalk him luhh ._. lame ~ dunno in the end who stalking
me horrrrr kehan ? :/ called jean tell her come out .
kehan so ahem ~ went in just like that ._. then went
under jean house slack. keep chatting and chatting.
after chatting still chatting ~ LOL. let me tell you , kehan
is a monster ~ hahas. he really is :/ thrs once i slapped him
and he go grab my head ._. crazy luhh. tell u already
monster. hahas. then went to play the stones. i go pick
up the stone and threw at him. AGAIN, he grab my head ._.
went to wash hand after that. then kehan suggested to jean
to run and go hide. then when they wan come out then i
saw them kehan chuatio ._. Stuipd monster ! then after that
went oppo rulang slacked ~ wanted to go in rulang , but mrkwan
already went home :o LOL. then kehan wanted to went home.
then we went to his house walking the other way and we reach
his house first ^^ LOL. hmms, went up to 15 FLOOR !
unit number is 15-_ _ _ LOL . i sae out he kill me. LOL.
then slacked outside his house wated for him. then hide at one
corner when he come up he didn saw us until he going reach his
door step. then keep deesiao him. hahas.LOL his house is ahem ~
MESSY ~ okay luhh quite ~ he is so gonna kill me :/ hahas.
played and played. then use plaster to stick at the see through
thingy ~ hahas. put alot of things at his door ~ then went off.
then think liao like very bad , so went to take it off. LOL.
went lakeside mrt after that. 7-11 to eat. whole day only
1 cup of noodles ~ pro right ? LOL. home after that.
short but fun day. LOL throwing stones . right ?! ^^
anw , pictures during huixin party is at raashiqah blog.
go and see ^^ LOL.

had sci retest today. complete the paper
within 1h15min. the boy sitting beside me
complete it within half and hour ._. like so fast
then he sleep all the way :o so good luhh ):
then he sleeping make me feel so sleepy .
then do until half put my head on table.
then complete the rest of the paper then sleep
for the last 45mins. i think i forgot to write my
name on the blank piece of paper for scetion c.
oh shyt ~ LOL. nvm. didn accompany lieuwei to
jp to eat. coz i havong headache somemore no
appetite ! sorry uhh lieuwei . went straight home
after that. the bus damn long. waited for 20mins
._. then home. reach home at 10.50 then sleep
realise i had fever ._. LOL. sleep till 3+ .
haven eaten from morning till now. father force me
to eat ): LOL. okay bye.

Goodbye and Sorry .

everything has come to an end .
11 months 12 days , everything might
be ended today. every of our memories ,
u deleted. no best friend still can be frens.
why have to do so many things. i noe
blog post and msn pm all saying about me.
never been so sad before. cried for very long.
last year , i didn cried. maybe they are just for
a short while . but its 11 months. how do we past
this 11 months together ? sharing things and
trouble and maybe part of our life. we used to think
that we cant live without each other . but now i guess
u have already changed ur mind. everything in my life
changed. ever since about that matter i am not as trusting
you as before. since then we are not as close as before.
i noe , alot of things had affected our friendship .
but cant put the blame to anybody. but to ourselves.
quarrel and thr we are back again. i guess this time i
really hurt you. or maybe both of us hurt each other
very deeply.i noe both of us were at fault. and ever
since then i have been losing confidence in wad that we do.
i noe , now that i have said this is already no use.
so no point saying it yea ? okay then , if this is really
the end , then Goodbye to this friendship .
and sorry for everything.

i cant even handle with my friendship and relationship properly.
shi qing , yao na de qi , jiu yao xue hui ze me fang de xia.

okay , this i seriously bull shyt ! Fuck .
met lieuwei at gate. she wasnt late ~
i am the one hehes :$ went for retest .
finished the paper then went off after 1 an
half hour . went lw house. she wan change.
headed to jp afterthat . kfc for breakfast.
after that meixuan came. toilet to change
then went to arcade. took neoprints :o
then went chamelon then xcraft and the bluez.
went down op thr met veronica. went window
shopping ~ went basement toilet retie hair .
action city next to find sandra and joanna. back
sch remedial. then off to training ^^ . training
sucks at the beginning. LOL. was late. 10 rounds
around the volleyball court ): warm up then pt :o
eeeeeeew. then hmms , partner train. 100 balls ._.
keep flyingggggggg ~ hahas. run and run :o LOL
then serving , pumping )': , small little match ^^
lose one must run vb court O.o i dunnid run ^^
andand improved ! hehes ^^ .

pai ma pi also dk how to pai ._.
noob luhh horr ? only noe how to step one pro
in vb ._. like shyt you noe ? okay , i did not bring
personal matters into vb can ? this is in the team
not personal ! only noe how to act ? omfg acting damn
lan luhh . let us tell you this : stop acting !

okay this is damn hilarious ! webcam with this noob
so gay ~ haha . cute right ? :/















okay ~ she wans me to post more ~
okay , i cant stop laughing ^^ yesterday webcam
with her also . from 3.33 - 6.03 O.o 2 an half hours ~hahas. okay . longer longer longer ~
the post is getting longer ~ ^^ she wans me to post : LONGER ~
LONGER !
LONGER !
LONGER !
okay okay ~
I LOVE JADE <3 ! ^^
hahahahas. very touch right ?
^^ okay luhh . byebye !
jade is a noob ^^ :/

i really hope that everything could
just disappear in my mind. i really
had enough of all those feeling. i wan
my old self back. really. and yea ,
i promised myself not to drop anymore
tears for him but i could not control.
it just flow down. its hard for me to believe
in r/s . i hope that time could rewind.
bring me back to primary school life.
although thrs quarrels but secondary
school life is sooooooooo confused !
Fuck .

woke up 8 in the morning. bath and prepare.
texting whole morning :o 9.30 went under
amelia's blk wait for her. so slow luhh :/
walk to jean hse outside after that. waited
for her then went to lakeside mrt. train
to dover. reach singapore poly. stand outside .
wait until times up then went in. that bytch
keep diao us luhh ._. cb knn. went to sit then
see performance. after watching went to entrance
thr. jade and lieuwei eating. went to find them
chit chat. fed jade eat , coz to busy. LOL .
collected class tee ^^ sooo nice (: and ms atikk
actually paid $2 extra for the back . Thanks ! ^^
went jp collect things then headed to lakeside.
while getting off the bus kehan saw me. and he
got into the bus. he so rough luhh ._. go bang me ~
LOL. scolded him :/ hahas. no luhh. me so good
no scold him ^^ crap awhile with him then
went to cut hair. only 1 word can describe it
: SHORT ! and i swear that is damnnn freaking
SHORT ~ zzzz. after that met amelia
at bus stop headed to huixin hse. rashiqah and nina
arrived already . then eat. amelia so ahem ~ keep
at thr burpe luhh. hehes. keep playing at thr , laughing
like nobody business . hahas. nina and rashiqah luhh.
hahas.then took 246 so stupid luhh amelia . huixin
already sae take opposite de liao she still so gan chiong
when the bus come ._. then from tamna take to taman ._.
noob luhh ~ :/ wanted to meet kehan . but he go off first
LOL. got down 246 at lakeside . took mrt to jp.
went to find lieuwei . her wallet lost :o went around finding it.
sad luhh. she so sad already amelia still bully her :/
accompany lieuwei to eat. only got 2 space so i went off first .
home after that. i have no appeitite ~ had only lunch for today
i seriously have no appeitite ): andandand ! i saw him today !
RIGHT SANDRA ?! ^^ hahas. only she noe i noe ^^
currently wecam-ing with jade. she is furious ~
chill !! lax ^^ <3

he knew that this relationship cant go on and yet he is
still being so selfish. i really hate you 2.

currently chatting with kehan.
he is super down now i think ~
keep talking craps to make him laugh.
cheer up lehh ! dun make relationship
affect ur mood ~ coz it totally sucks (:
and i found out that he changed alot.
he change in the way of talking instead
of being rude ( which was last time)
he is now very kind you noe ? :x
hahas. he shy lehh :$ hahas.
chat abt ahem and wow , ahem was
damn bhb :/ LOL. okay bye ~

had remedial today. lieuwei went
for dance so nehh come. reach sch ,
saw eugene. then went up to 3rd floor
bench thr sit. ahem walked pass , he
came and talk to me ^^ <3 hahas.
then sit thr till 7.55 ? went down.
texting eugene. he so cute luhh. as
in he forgotten his training wad time.
his training was at 2 and he came early
in the morning at 7+ nice one. LOL
then went for remedial. after remedial
headed to bus stop with stanley. on the
way saw a kitten ^^ sooooooooo cute ~
played with it. so kelian luhh. that stanley so
no heart :/ hehes. went home take things
headed to opposite rulang. waited for jean.
took train to jp. went to eat first. so hungry ~
and she took sooooooo long to finish. LOL .
went to buy shoe after that. was like finally (:
called people . shaunlee go gathering , wenkang
using comp not free. kehan sleeping as he very late
then sleep let him off :/ hahas. so kind ~ ^^
interchange after that. 242 to blss. went sci after
that. papers and teacher telling ghost stories .
scary ~ LOL. home after that. bath then sleep :o
kaleidorama tmr .

a big liar !

remedial today. did compo corrections.
left class at 9 . as thr's farm tour.
walk to toilet , on the way saw jade and
amelia so decided not to go. chatted played .
then we were late :o quickly go outside
pe room. but , our class already go ._.
then went car park. hahas. chat until
forget got farm tour . LOL boarded the bus.
reached the farm . went touring ~
so many insects . got bitten by mosquito ):
after tour went rest. milo , cake and fries.
go around telling people to write the card.
LOL. class photo next ^^ rest again , boarded
the bus. back sch at 11+ still got time for vb ^^
went training , only sec 2s were thr !?!
tot sec 1 NA de going ?! tot i saw her in the morning ?
LOL. then played games , hahas. so fun got anot ? ^^
then took pictures with seniors. strange luhh only
got 1 sec 1. LOL. coach cutted hair . sooo funny :x
after that went to find rachel . she at canteen waiting
for me. walk to jp. she wan buy shoe for band.
walk to interchange after that. jean called. went
to find her. likhock was thr too. went around jp to
look for clothes . LOL. in and out of the same
shop. almost finish shopping the whole jp :/
i am wanting to buy a shoe ^^ i shall buy it tmr !
hahas ! wow , i have many things to buy lehh !
omg. broke liao )': home at 3+

Thanks .

being together with you was my greatest
mistake in my whole life !
perharps , believing you and being with you
WERE my GREATEST mistake.
and maybe , knowing you was also my
greatest mistake. i hope i could forget you now
but i could not. like wtf , zzzzzz. people saying :
let go. they are not helping you , but they are
hurting you. so why not let it go ?
i noe , without you can consider my life as
meaningless , but now without you , i felt
lesser stress and learn to be independent.
sometimes i get lost when u are not with me.
i hope to forget this r/s . but i can sae , i do really
enjoy the time spending with you .
showing ur concern , enduring the pain and coldness
that we gave each other , but i wan you to noe that
i once truly loved you.
thanks for picking me up when i am down .
now that you have leave me , i realised that i should
let go of you as i cant depent on you forever .
i have to learn to pick myself up and continue walking
the path of my life and to deceide on my own.
if i were ever to fall again , i will learn to pick myself up.
coz i noe that one day someone will be crossing my path
when the time is right . for now , i just wan this r/s to
disappear in my mind and eventually i will get over you.
just give me time . i will just take one step at a time and to
make sure that i dun loook back ! and carry on walking my
path till the time is right.
and i am sure i wont be dropping ANYMORE tears for you
coz i noe that thr are people worst that me. although i am not
happy with the fact , but i will try to face it .
our love for each other had already went dry .
Thank you for the memorises.
and Thanks for leaving me.

remedial , farm tour , etc . >

remedial today. lieuwei wad lateeeeeee !
LOL. and is very late ~ after that jp , kfc.t
had porrige. walk around jp till 11+ walk to
library thr , wan play the swing but got ppl.
so nehh , suddenly got 1 very deep voice
shouting my name. turn back see is bingyang
call one ._. rachel and joey was with him.
they cross road then walk come. by keep
question me abt him. LOL. hahas. then
walk to sch with them. went 3rd floor
chatted ^^ 12 went remedial. 1 lieuwei
and felicia went off first. left me. LOL.
1.30 went to meet liuewei. walk to gekpoh
and met jade. bus back blss with them ,
jade and lieuwei went for dance. then bus
home. no vb tmr ._.

remedial as usual . 9.30 went to find
nicole.waited for 99 for half an hour !
bus came. fully packed ~ cab back home
instead. went home take wallet and volleyball.
headed back to blss bus stop. walk to pm as
i saw him (: went thr he gone O.o LOL.
bought hashbrown. walk to veron hse thr.
she wait us at swing . plaed vb awhile , swing
then went up her hse. Bobby is soooooo damn
cute ^^ :/ hahas. keep play with it. nicole scared
of it lehh O.o back blss remedial. 1.30 meet them
at koufu. lunch and went nicole hse. then went
school. still early , saw seniors , chatted with them
about the outing at ECP . then went up ISH .
PT. make our shirt damn dirty only luhh ._.
eeeeeeeeew. then train. so squeezy ~ cant imagine
if next yr sec 1 come in squeeze with us :o hahas.
train train till 5.45 match for sec 2. sec 1 not even
5 mins ._. home bath . feeling sooooo sick !
cough flu headache sore throat .
Fuck !

woke up at 8+ in the morning.
sleep again . till 9+ bath prepare
went jp. met nina , mac then interchange.
she brought the monkey with her O.o
154 headed to huixin house ^^
studied outside first. her didi so kind ^^
gv me ice cream eat. hahas. learning
thr symbol thingy O.o keep forgetting ._.
3+went down her neighbour hse played
with the dogs ^^ so cute. hahas. went
bus stop next. saw some one which looks
like kehan , wearing his school pants.
text-ed him he sae he at home. then keep
saying that person was him ._. noob ^^
he soooooo fake luhh got anot ? :/
he's so gonna kill me when he see this .
home now. super bored ! LOL.

remedial . lieuwei nvr late :o
LOL. comprehension for today.
after that went 7-11 walk around
then went back to sch. library was
nest. didn open went 3rd lvl bench
sit and chat ^^ chat until library open.
went in library , took chair then sit
at the corner thr. continue chatting .
went sofa thr sit. lw at thr sleep :o
went for sci after that. afer sci went jp.
met meixuan at swing thr. played thr awhile
then went kfc. meixuan wan eat. then lw
also wan O.o was suppose to meet rachel to
collect the bag. but.... she at her ahma hse ._.
LOL. 3pm jade came along and join us ^^
chatted walk to interchange bus home.
Hx hse tmr ^^

school for remedial today.
met lieuwei at canteen. she was late ~
went for eng. after eng went jp.
ate breakfast then went library thr
swing play ._. went back jp after that.
accompany lieuwei to pierce her ear.
walk back to sch then. chatting on the
wy. went up 3rd lvl sit and bench thr
continue talking ~ ^^ went for sci.
on the way saw his fren. he wasnt thr
sad right ? ): after sci , bus to lieuwei
house. she eat while i see ^^ her brother
suddenly come back. scaredieme. LOL.
but still suan kind luhh. got smile back. LOL
mum called. went down bus stop. forgot take
wallet. went back her house . then went bus stop.
she keep saying she angel luhh but keep sae me
devil ): LOL. so fake luhh she. :/

I will eventually forget and get over you
but i just need time :D

sch today. met lieuwei.
and she was hungry so went canteen.
waited very long for the teacher.
then lieuwei went GO with her mum first.
me went inside have class first. awhile she
came back. after eng , went straight for vb.
started bt self hitting the ball ._.
while hiting the wound damn pain ._.
some how after awhile , i started to bleed )':
ignore it :x then serving ,spiking, setting.
match from 10am onwards ^^ coach left after
that ): then at thr play ~ the last team was with
all yellow hse ._. me extra only red. LOL.
then 12 went sci. after sci went home.
i was cutting things and thinking something
then accidently cut until my finger ):
so careless luhh.

It wasnt important for you to noe already

people have been saying. forget abt him.
forget the past. this was from sister , brother
and homo. they were helping me and encouraging
me at that period of time when i am down.
what they have sae really made me think twice
and cried out. i mean really cried out you noe ?
guess i shall let him go already yea. ?
lw said that too. its no use keeping him.
okay shall end here (:
specially thanks to this few people that made
me forget him. although i have nt forget him
but i am trying (:

Without you , i find my life meaningless

school today. waited for lieuwei at the
gate. she was late :o when to class. had eng.
then jp to eat. breakfast cum lunch .
walk around. did the art thingy. then walk
back sch had sci remedial. and yea i saw
ahem today ^^ after that took 181 to westwood
with lieuwei . then 185 back home.
home bath then went jo with cousin.
shop around. and now back home.

the answer will be a never ! ;D

tomorrow ! ^^

woke up at 9+ today by veronica's msg.
sleep again. 10.30 then wake up .
prepare met nicole at gate. actually
wan to walk to gekpoh de. but then
she is lazyyyy ~ hahas. so cab thr.
nicole foot the bill . LOL.
met veron and joanna . they were hiding :o
went up mac. didn eat much. went cc to slack
after that. pictures ~ lazy update. LOL
waited for sandra then walk to wgps.
then saw adrian. nicole called him. all squad
accept for me and sandra . so ps got anot ? ._.
went to buy ice cream. went to sch.
walk to ish first. then went to classroom thr.
sandra went into the humans room kena
lock by nicole. she was counting how big the
class is by using her feet. result was 38 ! ^^
LOL. walk to 4/2 sandra walk in again.
counting how big thr room is , using her
feet . result was 34 ! so small ! ^^ LOL.
went ish. bb court. warm up. chatted
with mrs chew. laugh lot. ! hahas.
then coach came. PT ):
then 3.50 went up . set up net and all that.
3.55 started to train. self train. then 4 coach
train us. so biased ! :/ train till 5+ match ^^
so fun ! left ish at 5.40 ? then went wait for
father. raining ._. fetch people home.
Nicole followed by veronica , huining and yanqing.
home after that ^^
yes tomorrow ! ^^ <3 anw, thanks lot to brother ! ^^

maybe i said that i regretted.
but i tink that i wasnt.
but you didn give a damn abt it.
i didn accept was becoz i was confused at that time.
nvm . no use saying this now anymore.
everything has ended.

i noe , 1 day , you will still walk out of my life.
why not i let go of you now and free you.
i shall not be selfish and keep you by my side