well , i've a good friend out there . i used to hate her but now we're good friends . yes , really good friends . but well , i really have no idea why must she lie to me ? and why must she broke her promise towards me ? we're in the same class yes , and i really likes her alot . but why must she do this ? she know i dont like it , isn't it ? i told her about it , she was shock , but well , girl it's true . you gotta believe it . you might not love him anymore as you told me , but i know right from my heart you still loves him . you said no just to entertained me arent you ? :) well maybe you're better towards him ? he likes you better i should say , i aren't anything to him now ? maybe . i know where i stand . not as important as you . fine . great . well , i dontknow what to say about you girl . you really brokw my trust scale towards you . fine .

Hello hello hihi , its been like 2 more days to 1 year since i've touched this blog . well , i'm bored at home therefore i came blogging . well , left at home by baby as he went to look for his friends at jurong east ... ? and he left me over here :( not meeting him today . well , hate yesterday , alot alot alot . seen something that i shouldn't . i dontknow if baby is playing or what . i dont dare to ask him .. maybe i should ask like i dontknow anything ? should i ? :( sigh , i dontknow . texting with lijun like right now . :') yay i should say coz i cant complain to her . yes i got back with her and we really became quite close . we share about most of our things , iloveher ♥ :') and yes of coz i love baby too , i miss him so so so much and i really really love him . yes i do i do i do :') i'll never let him go and i want to lasst long long till forever and eternity with himmmmmm ~ hehehe ♥ ♥ ♥

Ahhhh ni mama :( being forced by Amelia gohhhhhh to update my blog :( :(

If I dont update means she also won't updat , FOREVER . Myahhahaa .

Applied Mac with her . But we didn't manage to work tgt at all :( like a sad . But it's okayyyyy , got chance one right :P

Holiday left with 1 more week . Which is back to study . Gonna study real hard . I don't wanna retain ya (: hahaha , lesser time for everything .

Fall sick ahhhhh :(((( Sighhhh .

Okok bye-bye at least I update for the seek of AMELIA GOHJIAPEI :P ♥♥♥♥♥

( First Day of School )

everything was no longer the same as before . and i guess it will never be the same anymore . So ya , what are besties really for ? Aren't they suppose to be the one always be there for you and never leave you ? If you ever treated one as your bestfriend why didnt you care about others feeling ? If you ever cherish friendships , you will turn back and knowing that it might be your fault . We tried all ways to save this f/s but are you putting in effort to ?

(Sentosa Trip)

Does it means that your own bestie have new friend and doesn't wan old friends anymore ? Friends friends friends .. So what ? Do they even care about it now ? They can just scold you all they wan pangseh all they want coz they had new friends in their new class . So what if I am in the same class with one of my best ? Does it means that we can be the bestest friend ever ? No we won't be . Coz when some have new friend as company they won't care about the old ones . They will just walk away happily with their new friends . Thinking that they hold their hands walking around swining high , kissing on her cheek , you may think that I'm jealous but actually I'm not but if really think i am then by all means .

(Sentosa Trip)

Coz I know by doing that you're seeking for attention . Yes those were memories , teasing each other , quarreling and stuffs . Scolding each other bitch and calling one and another stupid names . We actually don't mind . Coz we are best friend . You might not treated me as your best but I do . I treated the clique last year as the best . The best clique I ever have together with the 4 boys too . So what about this year , everybody drifted . You have your own friend now to rely on . You'll never need us anymore coz she is your best now . So I actually couldn't care much about it anymore . No point writing it out here . For now I only know that I love my current life .

It's okay , we all have to live without each other one day . I miss everyone of you out there . even till now , yet i miss everything , but who actually cares ? you doesnt coz you have her in your life now . i cant blame her for doing all this , but this is life , you just like trusting people too easily . Surely , i can say that i know you much more better than her ? but maybe to you , you thinks that she understand you the most more than everyone of us in your clique last year , but actually no . aiya , like i say no point anymore (:

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I hope this friendship of ours will last till eternity , coz i love her ♥♥♥ She knows me she understands me she cheers me she talks to me she makes me laugh like a mad dog she makes me worried for her she makes me know that she cares . And the person is just her (: Hi Amelia , I love you ♥ muacks muacks :P

This will be the last post for this blog i guess ? or maybe will till i get the interest back (: hehehe goodbye .

I love Amelia!!!!?!!????

UPDATEDDDDDDDDD ^-^

Friday had sports day . After sch > Weijun house > 9head > cab to petrol station > walk to stadium . Sat with Lijun and Veronica all the way . Manage to sneak out with Lijun ite only me kena caught coz of bibi fault . 

Walk to 9head with sheena's hello kitty umbrella while the others walk in the rain x.x slack and the other went off . Nanyang cc waited for Chinkeong , cab home @ 8 .

As for sat , woke up early met Nicole and off to sch for student leader investiture rehearsal x.x kinda boring like a waste of my time . Manage to sneak out early with Nicole . Met Yingyu Qiwen and Wilson at 7-11 jp with them after that . 

Star fac to bird , waited for bibis . Buzz next the letterbox , star fac then melia cameeeee . Lailai for lunch . Durian empire next . Bibi left first for bible study ?? Studied at durian empire for like 3 hour + plus our chit chat session ^-^ hehehe . Home at 6 ^-^ 


If you've ever wonder , what if I was to leave one day . Will you bother to give a damn about it ? I don't think so (: I dislike the fact that you didn't care -.- 

What are friends ?

Now I know friends come and go . Only true friends stay by your side . Who really are you true friends ? Who are those truly know what happen to you , those who used to care doesn't really care anymore coz all had their own new friends and not bother their old friends . Why can't people forgive an forget easily ??

Forget the past , I know it's difficult but somehow we have to . If we don't , the world will be full of hated and we won't have friends , and ya just forgive and forget , be back friend ??? Why can't you all do that ? Since all likes the past and wants the happy memories to stay and continue just forgive la , so difficult meh ?

Being friends of your friend , it's difficult to make decisions on who where how why what to do . Fucking difficult dude . not trying to refer to anyone here but the fact . Really wasn't fruit to refer to anyone . You guys might not care anymore but still I think that in your heart you truly care . No matter what , friends are still friends , no matter what they we are still friends after all (: 

Sch today , first 2 period free period . Walk around sch with Veronica till both periods end . Back to class have lesson .. Sel make paper crane which make me Pekchek like some dog . 

Sch ended at 1240 . Collected keys , rush to 7-11 bought flour . Back to sch for training . Train @ ish till 3 . And I swear most of us were all so fucked up . Yes yes yes . I was upset + disappointed + angry . Really really fucked up . 

Sprint 3 rounds continuously with hanis . And continue sprinting non stop . Fucking broke down infront  of her . Told her my feelings and everything , seriously keep running round canteen like free . 

Run like 10 round like that la , gastric pain until bueytahan , but didn't stop , just run . Keep went behind canteen there kick the railings to vent anger on , yes tgt with hanis . She slit her hand machiam free one lo , and ya .. 

Sibeh Pekchek . Training ended at 4 . birthday bash Nicole , pathetic much with flour and then I pour water on her when she is washing herself up . She wanted to give chase but I run away too fast ya ? Went back canteen . 

Suddenly like broke down again . Cried even harder than before , yes I'm a cry baby I don't care what you say . Thanks Yingyu , my best friend *winkwink* , for his care :S told he to give me beat to vent anger he jitao say yes without hesitation lo . Like a good :P 

And also Veronica , for accompanying me here and there tellin me this and that . Hanis for listening to all my sorrows and craps and nonsense . She know how I feel ): fucking couldnt control my tears when I'm with her , coz I feel so . Aaiyisah and adibah and Aqilah for telling me to cheer up and stuffs . Kkk , I love them seriously . Best teammates ever ♥♥♥

I maybe sensitive and stuffs , think again , who was the one who lead me to all the sensitive thinkings ? 

Woke up at 10+ today . Spammed call bibi but fail . Bath and prepare met bibi Chinkeong and nigelac at Jp . 

letterbox > Mac > starfac > letterbox  > Weijun house > Jp > starfac > letterbox > took 179 rounding to 707 there playground . Slack till 6+ , nigelac went off , left 3 of us went 9head slack . 

Slack at playground till 7 , cab home after that (: 

. am being force to post by that piggy oinkoink bibi of mine . Torture ah !!! Fake :P

2e6'10 ♥

really missing my cliques last year . Really really . I really hate this year .. though i might get along well with my classmates now , but still dont really get use to this class . i wan 2e6'10 when all of us were really together , crapping , joking , laughing and teasing each other . yes i miss them ): no matter good or bad .

I miss rashiqah shahila and nina . i miss hanging out with them . i miss my boys + girls clique which consist of me , Amelia , Jade , Rachel , Huixin , Qiwen , Eugene , Yingyu , Joseph . all of us like saperate already lo , all got their own new friends then go with new friends , didnt talk much anymore . really really missing them like bloody hell ):

miss disturbing the teachers , miss walking around the sch compound with the boys , miss slacking and hanging around outside sch , miss walking home together , miss shopping together , miss going jp for star fac tgt . miss sentosa trip , miss class outing . i miss everything ): somebody please organise class outing during june holiday (': ?

i miss everything , but i miss you even more ):

ZeroOneZeroFour ♥

I know , I'm alittle over sensitive this time round , or maybe very sensitive . I know it's my fault , my fault for being too paranoid , being too jealous , being too sensitive . I'm thinking too much seriously . I shouldn't be so sarcastic , yup and I know that you know that I'm being sarcastic . A little too sweet over there and being too jealous over here . I don't know , just have this feeling of being jealous . I dislike it , coz I know I'm thinking too much therefore lead to jealousy . Cross my heart , promise you I won't be too sensitive anymore , neither will I be jealous for NO REASON , and won't be paranoid . Won't listen to what people say and make decision . I don't wan to quarrel , I really don't wan to . Tired of crying and everything . Sometimes I really don't know what to do , just have the feeling of being angry , being sad , being disappointed over you , coz you don't seems to care .. Maybe you do ? Maybe not ? Idk . Sorry for being unreasonable at times ♥ 哭着哭着也哭得累了。不想在想那么多了，或许真的是我想太多了。


Sch today , Boonlay got talent for assembly . After sch headed vb with veronica . Thanks her very much for comforting me . Love her , she accompanied me for vb and till end of vb . Then she went off find her baby . Still much appreciated . Thank you ♥ . E learning day tomorrow (:

Sch today ~ woke up as early as 5 by bibi's morning call ! Then 5.30 again ~ prepare and met jade at opposite starbucks there . Fairprice extra to be auntie like a JadeYeo :P she saw this sweet 2 for $1++ then she shouted 'eh , for 2 leh' jitao laugh la . 

Walk to sch with her . Pe first period with was like living in hell -.- sweat like mother fucker . So lazy to elaborate ya . So end of sch , walk out of gate turn right , met OINKK . LOL , bus to her house downstairs . Waited for her whole babu and Patrick came . 

Ride bike to 9head . First rider babu , second was bibi . Coz halfway bibi bike chain drop , LOL please :/ 9head slack . Wait for chinkeong . Ride back to Patrick house . bibi like a fail coz we fell down halfway :x like a ps ! Ride under the rain till blss. LOL . Slack around opposite sch , and home at 4.20 (;

Last min decision , breakfast with sucker on Sunday morning . Study at frontier and gossip alot (; hahaha . 

Interchange and Jingying shouted my name across . Like a shy . Accompany jy clarissa Christine for their lunch . Rachel and Ahhao join in too . After that home tgt with christine as the others went mookmook .

Sch was ?? Promised sucker to study hard from today onwards ~  after sch met bibi opposite sch with rachel . Jessica was there too . Then babu and chinkeong came . LOL . Bus to Chinkeong under blk . Waited him , like a long . Cab to stadium for sports day . Home at 5+ . 

If one day I was to leave you , do you still bother to care ? 

So disappointed yet nothing to say .

Happy first month mousieee & piggy ! ♥

Happy birthday to Joseph brother , and Yanqing ((: and also , April fool ! Kena fooled lot of time ): 

Sch today was a thumbs down . I don't like sch . I don't like y class . 

After sch met Amelia outside sch together with Jade and Yuxuan . After that walk back Met Veronica and kellie for training .

Ish > 7-11 with Veronica . Canteen to talk talk .. Told her my feelings . Love her coz she understands . Back to ish next . 

Vent my anger on volley . Pathetic max . Was kinda angry , keep punching the vb pole . Keep throwing the ball like free . Sorry pole and sorry ball . 

Sabo-ed Yanqing (: and then home at 5+

0104 ♥.♥

Sch today . Tired like fuck . After sch , met my very irritatingbibi @.@ sat under block till Amelia is out of house , walk to jp . 

6 level to slack while waiting for that da xiao jie . Met her and Mac for lunch . Ate nugget jitao funny lo :x oops . Eat until 2nd last piece then almost fall asleep thn the nugget drop x.x LOL !!! Lame ! 

Went to print pictures after that . Outside starfac to slack till 3+ almost 4 coz somebody wants to jihong @.@ mother fucker -.- LOL . Home after that . Suckish day . 

Kind of forget who you are coz you are a total changed person .

24 march .
Sch kinda slack ? No late day co got election . A few free periods . Mother tongue sucks coz mdm loo come kp me for no reason ): wan kp go toilet and kp la ))): ite shoot her until she bwg . 

After sch met Nina Outside sch, jp with her , Amelia , Jade and Rachel . Jade and Rachel went off first . Letterbox , walk around , Mac for their lunch . Letterbox saw Christine and co. accompany then go Mac eat . Up to zone x sit sit . 

Waited for Samuel , accompany him go eat at kfc . Walk walk around , ended up at pasar malam . Slack around went sit sit at the rock there . Chit chat all the way gossip also uh :P hahaha , 6+ headed to durian mpire . The 3 of them went eating and off to letterbox , home after that -.- 

25 march .
Sch sucks . But fun with Sandra . I love her . Lots and lots of stunts with her . Hahaha , love ms Liza markers coz we were drawing rainbowwwwww :P jade wasn't in sch today coz she wasnt feeling well , get well soon k ? ^-^ played catching with mr mak today ! I likeeeeee ! Hahahhaa :P walk out of class and hide inside 3/6 all the boys helping me hide lo :$ and also Marsya and afiqah :P after that came put then lots of people asking me where i hide :$ LOL

home with ameliaaaaa after that ! Hehe . 

Not a good day for you for me for he for she , really aren't a good day to start . 

Raining early in the morning , stupid me for being too tired that I fell asleep without charging my phone x.x dieeeeee ! Batt left with 44% like a pathetic . Really aren't a good day to start with .

May seems that I'm happy on the outside but actually hurts on the inside . I didn't know . You didn't understand well enough I guess . Feel like shutting myself down coz I aren't strong enough . I was never strong , I'm afraid of falling , I'm afraid like what you're afraid of . 

Not many things have been happening but to me it's quite alot even though you dont think so . Lots of things unsolved , and couldn't be solve . Idk why , hahaha , got a feeling of things ending ? Or perhaps the world I ending . Ohohoh ~ 

High jump today was a blast ! Clear a certain height but got myself injured on my lower back . Fml please . Even sit down Also will pain lo . Love jihonging my sofa hahha , and I think I fell in love with it x.x dieee , hahaha . 

Hope it don't rain the next morning so i can go sch peacefully ^-^ but please rain during sch hours , not too cold like today coz I'm freezing like hell and step one fever Infront of mrsoh therefore cheated 2 period of his poa lesson ^^ clever girl , yes ! 

Great day ytd with great people ((: met Amelia and of to Jp meet Nina . Christine came . Letterbox > starfac > letterbox . Took photos . Yiling came after that . Xcraft next . Wanted to pierce 2nd helix , but then they say difficult so pierce right ear 5th hole . While Nina pierce helix . Susan came .

Slack awhile and off to letterbox again . Waited for Weijun , Jackie and zhizhen . Headed off to mrt . Train to jookoon then to somerset . Walk to cineleisure after that . Pasta mania for lunch which is (N) oops :x headed off to scape . Me Nina and Christine went off to zonex while Amelia susan yiling went flea market . And the guys dunno go where .

After that guys came down to look for the others . Ljs next . Then went withdraw money with Nina and Weijun . Back to ljs . Slack and stuffs . Me Nina Jackie Zhizhen walk off . They went smoking . Then blablablaaaaa . After that headed off to marina barrage . 

Photo taking session . LOL . Christine kite totally cmi lo :x can't fly oneeeee ~ at 8+ Jingying and clarissa came . Put hotair balloon :o tot cannot put then they put . Police came ah , hahaha , then at first all act innocent diamdiam then Susan suddenly say is us lo . LOL like a funny . 

Slack slack all the way till 10+ went off to take bus . 502 jitao back to jurong . On bus damn squeezy coz of christine lo :@@ fake ~ sleep all the way bus got woken up afew times @.@ that pig send me back home after that . Home @ 11.40pm . A great day actually , sch tmr like a shag . I don't wan :( didn't enjoy enough .. Giving pe and CCA a miss tmr (: